Qaisara, tunggu mama di pintu syurga...

Salam..

dear friends, saya telah selamat bersalin pada 20/03/2011 yang lalu..unfortunately, I lost my baby..Allah lebih sayangkan bayi kami..A cute baby girl @ 3.4kg and 58cm we named Arissa Qaisara Sani binti Sanizabri..

Yes, its tough but we are fine, Alhamdulillah..Kami redha dengan pemergiannya dan ujian yang Allah beri ini.Bukan rezeki kami dan kami percaya ada hikamh disebalik ape yang terjadi ni..

Doakan kami kuat menghadapi dugaan ini dan doakan yang terbaki buat saya, suami dan Qistina.Moga dimurahkan rezeki pada masa hadapan..

A note to Qaisara dari mama:

Qaisara,
9 bulan mama kandungkan Qaisara. Tak pernah terlintas dalam fikiran mama yang Qaisara akan pergi tinggalkan mama selepas 9 bulan dalam sekelip mata je..

Mama masih ingat tendangan dan gerakan Qaisara sebelum mama dibedah..Are you struggling dear?I hope not..Mama minta maaf sayang..I wish I knew..but Kuasa Allah mengatasi segala-galanya..

Tak sempat mama dengar tangisan dan rengekan Qaisara..Tak sempat mama susukan Qaisara..Tak sempat mama lihat mata Qaisara terbuka..

Tapi mama puas sebab mama sempat tatap and cium anak mama..Biarlah sekejap je mama dapat belai2 Qaisara..Sekejap je mama dapat peluk2 anak mama..Mama puas sayang..

Mama redha dengan pemergianmu sayang..Qaisara bukan hak mama..Allah lebih sayangkan Qaisara..Tunggu mama dan abah di pintu syurga ye sayang..

Takkan pernah mama and abah lupakan Qaisara..You will always be our second daughter, Arissa Qaisara Sani..Damailah kamu di sana anakku..

Al-fatihah..

Qis @ 23months..

Saje je nak tepek gambar Cik Qis saya..lame tak letak gambar die sini..ni mase percutian Cherating-Kuantan mase chinese new year hari tu...enjoy!

Qis memang tak takot air..

kepenatan lepas swimming

Cik kak cari sape tu???

ma,pakai senduk lagi senang nak makan...

Counting Days...

fuuuuuuuuhhhhh...fuuuuuuhhhhhh..sorry yer..nak tiup habuk2 kat blog ni sat..lame bebenor ghupenye tak update....siap ade tahi cicak sekali..hehe..

well, nak buek camno..banyak bebonar bondo nak buek eh..*datang mood nogori jap*

Next week start audit..jeng,jeng,jeng..harapnye tak terbersalin lagi mase tu...hari2 dok la usap perut cakap ngan baby "tunggu minggu lagi satu yer baru kuar sayang...mama ade one last task to do..."

Yes, I'm counting days je nih..tak sabar nak bersalin sebab nak tgk baby and dah penat nak bawak badan..but at the same time,cuak memikirkan 'battle' tu nanti..

Doakan ku sampat mengadap auditor and dipermudahkan bersalin yer rakan-rakan..will update you guys later!!!

Ya Allah, kepadaMu ku berserah, Permudahkanlah aku bersalin...

toodles peeps!!

Alamaks, over budget la...

Renovation rumahku agak over budget sikit but still affordable..~sigh~..

Duit oh duit, kenapakah ko macam air??senang saja berlalu pergi..

Tapi rumah dah nak siap..x sabar nak masuk rumah baru..hari2 pergi tengok progress die..

And so far, I'm liking it!!Our own house, with our own, personal touch to it...puas hati.

Alhamdulillah..everything is according to plan so far...

rumah baru to welcome our new family member!!!

According to plan..

I have this strong feeling that Dec 2011 is coming sooner than I thought it would be..

Guess what? My 2011 calendar is pack with things-to-do up until November. Isn't that great?Well,at least I have a better idea of my days to come in 2011. The only thing is whether I can keep up to it..

My year started with hectic schedules of accounts,audit,training,admin stuffs and my house renovation in between.So far, I have been managing the stress well but the workload does take its toll on me given the fact that I'm now 8 months pregnant..

But alhamdulillah,nothing serious and I am coping well. None of the things above is complete yet but I'm hoping it will before I give birth to my second baby.*rubbing my big,round tummy*

and I think I will be doing a lot of things from home even when I am 'dalam pantang'..

Company trip..

and ISO audit..

and more admin stuff..

and training..

and year end holiday..

and God knows what more waiting for me to organize and complete...

Ya Allah, give me strength to deal with all this..

For now, I'm looking forward for my next holiday end of this month. Cuti-cuti Malaysia of course since travelling by airplane is not a wise option at this stage of pregnancy..

Relaxing and rejuvenating are all I need now....I can almost smell the ocean and...eerrr...ikan bakar?*wink*

toodles peeps!

Demam Drama Korea!!!

Boys Before Flower and Playfull Kiss..Baru je abis tengok 2 citer Korea ni...sibuk2 pun sempat curi mase nak tengok malam2 or weekend...I tell you,citer Korea ni berhantu..kalau dah mule tengok,asik teringat je selagi tak abis...tu yang malas nak mule..

Well,ibu mengandung ni tersangatlah berkenannye tengok pelakon dalam citer ni...Kim Hyun Joong..Actor/Singer..Adoi..mude lagi budak ni ghupenye..24yrs old..ingatkan lagi tue dari aku..but anyways,i like his character in both of the drama..Ni ha gambar die..


Xde la hensem sgt tapi manis dan sedap dipandang dan jambu..Kalau hensem tu Cik Abe, cinta hati saye...hehehe...Siap cakap kat hubby, 'Abe,nanti anak kite ni keluar cakap Korea kot..sebab ayang ngah gile Korea ni..suke tengok muke Hyun Joong ni..mane tau kenan ke nanti..'hehehe...sengih je cik abe ku..

Anyway my beloved sayang..if you happen to read this, Abe tetap pujaan hati ayang yang bisa buatku angau sentiase..hehe..it's just kalau lepas tengok cite korea camni la jadiinye...syndrome 'angau korea' tu datang..hahaha...

Nasib baik dapat hubby sporting kan?Okla, ni dalam proses mendownload lagu cite Boys Over Flowers..I like some of its songs..

Kalau minat cite Korea make sure tgk k...

Toodles peeps!!

I'm a busy Queen Bee!!

Uuiiihhh...lame betul tak update blog ni..so much things to do lately ni..masuk ofis pagi,buat kerja,tahu2 dah lunch break..

year end account,prepare untuk audit,admin, organise co trip and house renovation...i tell you, tak terbuat..berkejar sane sini..kejap kang kene gi hardware, kejap kang gi survey harga barang, kejap kang kene deal ngan imigresen, macam-macam lah!

and semue ni kene ku settlekan sebelum bersalin bulan 3 nanti...tak nak tinggal kerja tergantung..so, ter-anak tiri la my baby blog ni..hari2 lawat blog tapi tak ter-update2..

Hopefully boleh update selalu soon..got-to-go..bos dah panggil!!ishk, bonuskah??hihi..*wink*

toodles!

A journey I will remember..

Ooolllaaaaaa...owh,how I miss my blog..Have been trying to update it day by day but fsiled to do so..

Well, entry ni nak cerita pengalaman ke Simpang Pulai dan Cameron Highland 28 Nov hari tu..I tell you,it was hell of a journey.Warning: Entry ini mungkin agak panjang..

Ok,pagi2 kami bertolak ke Simpang Pulai for wedding kawan my hubby..Uncle Pet, a friend of my hubby's naik sekali dengan kami..and so we arrived at Simpang Pulai around 12 pm lebih or something..

Lepas makan bagai, we decided to make a short trip to Cameron Highland..Alang-alang dah dekat kan? And so there's me and family, Pet, Lodeh, Sinah, Jai , wife and her sister, I think..

By the time we reached Cameron Highland, it was already almost 4 pm...We stopped at a farm, bought some strawberries, singgah kat Brinchang and Tanah Rata and last but not least, Bharat Tea Plantation..

By the time nak gerak balik, it was almost 7pm..and since Jai said it was closer to head on to Tapah instead of patah balik thru Simpang Pulai, we decided to continue moving on..Mase tu kete Lodeh and Jai dah gerak dalam 15minit..

Biase la, Cik Qistina ni nak susu la, tukar baju bagai so kami lambat sikit..Sangat2 lah kami tak sangka, yang our journey ahead akan bertukar menjadi sangat mencabar..

Well, the first half and hour ok je jalan die sampai ke satu tempat name die Ringlet or something, still, there is civilization..

Lepas je tempat tu, jalan dah mule bengkang-bengkok dan gelap, no street light..and to make things worst, sangat-sangat BERKABUS!!!memang tak nampak langsung depan..and kereta pun bergerak 20-30 km/j je...Masyallah...Masing-masing dah berdebar2..Risaunye, Allah je yang tahu..

Sepanjang jalan semue kene alert dan berhati2..Tambah2 lori banyak and selalunye berselisih mesti dekat selekoh dengan gaung kat sebelah...Mulut ni ade la jugak buat lawak nak sedapkan hati tapi dalam hati...

Nak tambah cerite lepas satu perkampungan orang asli ni, dari jauh aku dah nampak macam ade bende putih bergerak..ishk,diam je la..tak nak tegur or terkejutkan cik abe ku yg tengah bawak kereta..tibe-tibe..'Uih, Ape tu???'

Terkejut my hubby dengar si Pet ni cakap macam tu..nasib baik tak terbabas ke ape..Ko ni pun Pet, yang pi tegur watpe..diam2 kan je la...adoiyai..celupaq sungguh!.ghupenye ade budak and bapa or abang die ngah mencangkung tepi jalan...buat ape ntah..

And so jaraknye 40km je..tapi disebabkan jalan macam tu, dekat sejam setengah la baru sampai bawah...By the time sampai kat tempat berlampu bagai,semue diam..letih and penat dek journey tadi..

Seriously, I will never forget that journey..And I think my hubby and Pet would agree with me..Kami sampai rumah almost 12 tgh malam..Penatnye, Allah je yang tahu...2-3 hari jugak baru nak hilang penat..

Nasib baik aku okay sepanjang perjalanan..cume mase benti kat hentian Tapah, badan dah menggigil kelaparan..nak pitam sungguh rasenye..

What a journey kan?sape yang pernah lalu jalan tu, maybe paham ape rasenye..lagi2 kami ni first time lalu jalan tu...Mencabar sungguh..

A piece of advice,Sape yang pi Cameron,elakkan lalu jalan tu bile malam ok...agak merbahaya..Toodles peeps!!