I.Believe.I.Can.Fly

There goes another weekend..time moved so fast until sometimes it's difficult for me to even realized what is going on around me..I had too much on my plate that I have to choose which one to digest first..Don't work to hard awak..That's what one of my dear fren told me..Thanks for your concern dear.. but this job really drained me out these past few months until the coming May..

Anyways, my youngest brother got the offer to go to MRSM Kuala Kubu Baru..How cool is that? but guess what? This brother of mine doesn't want to go.. Too homesick to think about the benefit of this rare opportunity..Geram betul menengoknye..Second day in school dah lari balik.. Can you believe that? At least give it a try dulu, that's what I told him..

Yeah, I know some of you might think, kejamnye Ain ni..tak kesiankan langsung adik die by now..But hey, I've been there, done that (not the fly part la..) Who else can understand what he feels, more than those who went to boarding school before? I totally know how he feels..That lonely and sad feeling..Feels like you have no one with you there and suddenly you are fighting this world alone ..Well, itu kite yang fikir..On the contrary, there are a lot of new frens and you get instant brothers and sisters..Haha.. That is what we call 'HOMESICK'..bile homesick and you think of it too much, you won't enjoy doing anything coz all you think of is 'somebody please get me out of here..' Itu yang menyebabkan kite berani take an extreme step such as lari balik rumah..

N he get the whole school kecoh bout this especially the teachers..They almost make police report..Turns out my mum yang lagi relax..Sampe the head of warden said, "saye kagum tengok puan ni tenang je..selalunye mak budak lain dah menangis or dah pergi sekolah dah.." hehe..well, that's my mum..My brother? I think he get his lesson last nite..Straight and clear..

Trust me, I know how good it is to study in a boarding school coz I was one of the product..haha..I mean, there are things that I learnt when I was in school back then which I think I won't be able to gained and learn if I studied in normal school.. Don get me wrong, I have nothing against normal school coz I know, at the end of the days, no matter where we study, it depends on ourselves which path to choose and lead..So let us pray that my brother will survive his days in the school (at least until he's over this homesick thingy) and that may he be strong to fight those evil voices in his head that told him to fly back..hehe..

To my brother, be strong! (this is where he usually stare at me like he's going to swallow me or something).. I've been there and all i can say is don't think of it too much..Enjoy your time there coz one day, those will be your precious moment and you will look back and laugh at yourselve for the stupid things you did back then..But to be able to do that, you must survive now..

Shopping spree..

I was out with my mom, sis and the fiance last saturday..And again went out on Sunday..Tiring, but its worth it..After all, dah lame tak jumpa the fiance..And it has been a while since I went out shopping..

To tell you the truth, I envy ya'll yang bole selalu jumpe the bf/ the fiance..Coz I can't..And that's how it's gonna be until we both jadi kaya..Haha..But as long as we keep in touch, that's fine with me..After all, my work won't allow me to do all the house chores (memasak, mengemas, tunggu husband balik) coz I will be the one yang selalu balik lambat..So I guess this is good for now..

I am now busy searching for the perfect place for my honeymoon..Hope it's not too early but what the hell, I want the best..I was thinking, Phuket maybe? or Bali? Seriously if ya'll got intresting suggestions, please tell me guys..

One of my dear friend lost her mother last Sunday's morning..Banyak-banyak bersabar k dear..Allah knows better..Al-Fatihah..

TELETUBBIES

Went out with Dirah to book the wedding dress..Got a few choices but ended up chosing this one classy kebaya..Thanks a lot Dirah sayang..But seriously, I need to shrink a bit if I want to look great in that dress..Haha..Talking bout dieting eh? A never ending topic at least, to me..Well, I'll try my best but whatever it is, I'm still comfortable with my body..And if let say I am still not slimmer during my big day, I am still going to wear the dress..Well, I'm the one wearing the dress not the other way around..Haha..

'Kak Long, I want to see a slimmer you wearing that dress during your big day!!' That's what my mom has been telling me now a days..Not to mention my fiance as well..but my mom is worst..Haha..Can't blame her anyway..Sape tak nak tengok anak die or isteri die cantik and slim kan?So, I will try my best..Not to satisfy others, but for my own satisfaction. That is the ultimate goal for now..(eventhough deep inside I still have this tiny little thing called 'doubt' inside me)Hmm..The question now is..Mampukah aku?..Tunggu..........

Anyway people, like what Dirah said, get your purple dresses ready coz that's the theme chosen..Which purple? Yang macam Teletubbies tue...Haha..

29/12/2007, a date to remember..

Getting ready..

With my fiance..

With my wonderful friends

Wanie..

The gilaness..Dirah..

To those who were not invited, don't get me wrong..It's not that I don't want to invite but it's just a small ocassion.I promise I will invite ya'll for my big day..Kalu ade yang kecil hati, I am so sorry..So this entry was meant to share the happy day..

Move aside 2007! Welcome 2008..

2007 is so history tomorrow..It's new year, new journey, new wishes, new determination and new chapter..Hopefully this year will be a better one for all of us.A year of joy, luck, and happiness. I certainly hope this new year to be a good one with lots of good things and of course MONEY!!haha..Work will always be the same and in fact I can tell you that it will be worst but apart from that, 2008 is a year I've been waiting and looking forward for..I will be shifting to a new chapter of my life, Insyallah..

So guys, Happy New Year and I wish you a good and prosper year next year.To those who are still sitting for ACCA exams, Good Luck! To those who strive for a better life, don't give up! To those who still lead a life none other than bitching others day and night,GET A LIFE! To those who are still searching for Mr Perfect, open your eyes wider coz sometimes wut you are looking for is in front of you and to those who think doing nothing is a perfect life (lepak2 habiskan duit mak bapak), please get a brain surgery! Haha..

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

P/S

Dirah : May this year be a better one for you.I wish you all the happiness in the world coz you deserve it and you will always be considered as my little sister forever!

Myn: I wish you all the happiness in the world as well and may you have a happy, joyful year and always remember that I will always be your friend (yang selalu mengacau hidup anda)..haha..

Wani: Cik Wani, if you happen to read this entry, I wish you a prosper and wonderful new year and may you find Mr Perfect this year.Remember to introduce to me once you find one for screening k!haha..

Give me an A.U.D.I.T..SUCKS!

I've been thinking bout the job I'm doing now..I still couldn't find a reason to agree that it's worth it..Yeah, it does give hell loads of exposures but that's it.I've been considering to go somewhere else but here I am, doing what I've been doing for the past 10 months still.This is where the image of Barisan Nasional's punye lambang tu (penimbang) comes into the picture, weighing between leaving or staying..I will be merunguting one night, telling my freinds how I can't stand the job and how depressed I was but I will be fine the next day, doing the same thing, the same procedures that I was bitching about last night..weird huh?..welcome to the other side of my life...

I had too much of audit already..somebody please get me out of here!

This thing called LOVE..

L.O.V.E

Everyone has different opinion when it comes to love..Some find that love is important and some even find love menyusahkan. You might not agree with me, but throughout this few years, I found that love is a journey of discovering your strength and weaknesses and also getting to know yourself more that sometimes, you never thought you are capable of doing such thing. Love does turns someone into a more mature person but this does not applies to everyone, not to i'm-always-right kind of person.

Throughout this few years, I have learnt that everyone has a different type of love story in their life and trust me, I have witnessed a few intresting one and eventhough it's not mine to bother, somehow you can't avoid it. The funny thing in life is, sometimes the things that taught you about life are not those which involved you, but its the things that happened to people around you.

Well, I have my own love story which might be intresting to some people but boring to others. Looking back, there are things that I wish I can change and there are moments that I wish to happen again.Along the way, I have discovered my strength and weaknesses, I get to know more about my love and I get to learn that I have a few friends that will always be there for me no matter what. Those who won't judged me for the path that I chosed but won't keep shut if they think what I did was wrong and I am thankful and blessed for that.

There was ups and downs in my love story and there was once, I almost lost my faith in love but sometimes you have to listen to what your heart says.Everything happens for a reason and life is not always a bed of roses.I learned that love is about give and take, it's about accepting differences and weaknesses, it's about forgiving, it's about letting go of the past, it's about discovering yourself, it's about being a better person and believing that you deserve the best in love.

I know that some were dissapointed with the decision I made in life especially on my relationship and I can totally understand why. I know people talk behind my back but it doesn't bothers me at all. I thank those who has been really understanding and supportive to me eventhough I know they do feel disappointed as well (deep inside la..) and I know they love me and only want the best for me. At the end of the day, it's my life's that I'm deciding and I know my decision now dictates the life I will lead in future but you can never know about it and can only hope for the best and of course berusaha from now.Life is about taking chances and failure is not the end of everything coz sometimes, it can be a start of something..

I will be getting engaged soon and I hope and pray that starting from now, we both will be more mature in making decisions and stronger in facing obstacles..Insyallah..

updates..updates..

• I hope it is not too late for me to wish Selamat Hari Raya to all my friends..It is almost two month since I update my blog aite?Well, too bad coz the 'peak month' of audit has just arrived..so practically I will be busy until the next April..My raya celebration is just biase. This year I had to give out duit raye as I have started working..Seriously, why can't the rule applies only when we get married..Why can't i still get my duit raye..I spent about RM1000 for this year duit raye!Bukan merungut, but actually I kinda like the feeling when I give out duit raye to my siblings and my cousins as well as anak2 buah..(yang kecik2 je la)..Yela..bile diorang look at me and say 'thank you kak long' with a big smile on their faces..hehe..
• Went to Zana's open house...Dirah and the bf, Elly, Shigim, Myn and the bf ,Bad, Asrul and Ina and a few other.. Had fun walau pun jumpe kejap je..I didn't make it for the PD trip..I wish I was there but had things to do..Sorry Dirah dear..Dengan mynn pun tak dapat nak hang out..Sorry ye cik myn..Nasib baik awak jumpe jalan ke rumah Zana..Kalu tak,tak jumpe langsung le kite..Sorry i didn't go to mid..I'm sorry the lunch tak jadi..Seriously cik myn, don ever2 trust an auditor..they always broke their promises..haha..Anyway, make sure you can get back here for my wedding..
• I really miss Dirah rite now...lots of things to tell her..yeah, i know..handphone ade..but there are some things I prefer to tell her face to face..I have many friends..but only a few of them are close friends..Some of them are special to me..and I hope that this frenship that we have will continue to grow and last forever no matter what..hehe..jiwang lak..Seriously, eventhough we seldom hang out or seldom meet,don get me wrong, it's not that I don want to but somehow ade je bende nak buat..And sometimes,I'm just too lazy to go out sebab my work is like h*** and maybe that is just me..
• I'm a bit busy this month and next month..my work plus my engagement end of December..Ni belum real wedding lagi nih..Next year lagi worst..peak season of auditing plus my wedding?I'm so gonna need a wedding planner!!911!!Cik Dirah, sudikah anda menjadi wedding planner tak bertauliah saye?haha..well, hopefully everything goes as planned..
• Started buying the hantaran slowly..hehe..spotted a nice and just the perfect ring for my engagement..thank you dear..Found a perfect package for my engagement..Hopely everything goes well..Insyallah..

Lastly, Selamat makan Marukku!hehe..