Durian Crepe

I had this for my breakfast..

Not bad at all but I won't go ga-ga over it..

I saw people's updates on these crepe and its like a-must-eat thing now.

Its like if you haven't eat it yet, you are soooo yesterday..

Is it? well, for durian haters, they couldn't care less..

Oh, don't get me wrong. I don't hate durians..

Toodles..

kimchi..

Dinner at mid valley.ni semua gara2 en hubby nak makan korean food.

So we went to Dubu-Dubu..not bad la food die..yang penting hubbyku dapat 

makan kimchi kegemarannye..

Malas la cite bnyk.enjoy je gambar ok..

 Tunggu food..

hubby's order..ntah ape ntah namenye..

                                              Muke orang ngidam korean food..hahaha..

spicy rice cake

Qis and her catch of the day..

my work nest?

my room in the office..

ha..camni la kalau time mengupdate akaun..ni pun kire kemas lagi..

kalau tak atas meja pun penuh ngan file..

kat belakang meja tu memang penuh ngan file..

inilah bilik yang ku duduk hari-hari 8.30am-5.30pm..

tgh cari idea nak bg ceria lagi..

thought of hanging up family pictures..

we'll see bout that later..

Passport Pic

Baru je balik buat passport untuk si kecik..hahhaha...renew sekali mama and abah punye passport sekali..susah sungguh nak amik gambar die..sebab dok syok sgt pandang sane sini..so this is the pic we can get from her..tgk tu mencebik bibirnye..puas abahnye suh pandang camera..

arissa qairina sani

kat bawah ni pulak gambar passport kakaknye Qis..mase Qis amik gambar ni, she is already 8 months..so dah pandai sikit..hahahaha..lain kan muke my daughters?

arissa qistina sani

my 2 precious, gorgeous treasure..hikhik..semoga membesar jadi muslimah yang solehah dan bijak..

Ya Allah, jauhilah anak-anakku dari maksiat dan sifat-sifat yang keji..Amin..

hopelessly hopeless

I feel hopelessly hopeless..

There are tonnes of emotions raging within me.

I just want to shut down n forget everything..

But i love my kids so much..

And i will stay strong..

For my family.

I'm fighting it through thick n thin.

I hope i'll survive.

the things we sacrifice..

Done bathing both my kids..now ngah bergolek melayan diorang..en hubby ade kelas hari ni..kalau weekend en hubby ade kelas..memang patah kaki..

Restricted sikit nak buat banyak bende bile ade baby..nak kemas rumah pun x dapat..at times baby Qai xnak letak..nak berdukung je..sakit pinggang Allah je tau..

Banyak kali jugak sebab nak attend to Qai, Qis mintak susu pun susah nak layan segera..sian Qis..banyak kali dah die tertido before getting her milk.

Nak masak memang payah..kalau baby tido dapat la saye masak..if not,makan je la ape yg ase kat dapur..or sometimes mintak tolong adik-adik beli..

So if en hubby sacrifices his weekends for class,note that i am also sacrificing things here..bukan senang nak manage things bile ade baby.stress jugak dok umah xbole nak buat ape2.nk keluar pun pikir bnyk kali..

For now weekend kalau nak berjimba kene tunggu weekend yg hubby xde kelas or kalau ade org boleh ikut n teman..with Qis n baby Qai, saya belum yakin nak keluar sendiri.baby ok, but Qis memang x boleh lepas pandang..

She is too bold n brave.x takut orang..she didn't bother to stay close to me.

So another one year..bile en hubby grad, weeehhhuuuuy..banyak beban hilang..not just physically but mentally as well..hati pun tenang..

Toodles peeps!

new love interest..

This is qis's new love interest..kihkih..
Bought it for her yesterday. She went into the shop, determined to buy Strawberry Shortcake  Playdough..
While searching for it, she stumbled upon this and instantly fell in love with it..
No more playdough nor anything else..
'I want this mama.Qis nak jual-jual'
Same interest eh? I guess she wants to be an accountant when she grows up.just like mama eh?
Anyways..this cash register is awesome..played it with Qis the whole day yesterday.
She would be a very good n efficient cash register attendant!
And for the record,it costs me rm65!!
Toodles!

A 'me' time..

I need time for myself..nak gi spa ke..shopping ke..hang out with frens ke..i need a 'me' time.

Yela sometimes perlu merehatkan diri dari penat lelah bekerja, jadi ibu, isteri, housekeeper dan mcm2 lg..

Jap nk selit gambar..like mother like daughter..ceria!

Dapat bercuti pun best jugak..i just need a break sometimes..

Aper cer?

ade orang tu..dulu kemain fren kat fb..

bile dah termalu terus nak un-friend and block2..

ape cer? ko yang kemain gatai pikir pendek..

ko jgn risau, xde nye aku nak post fb pasal ko..nyemak wall je..

malu lah nak post pasal ko..memalukan kaum perempuan.

elok lah ko unfriend and block tu.

time kasih.

The faces of Qairina

Here are the faces of my lil' Qairina..

 muke  ceria..

 muke marah..

 muke confuse..

 muke pasrah..

 muke...errr..berlagak?

muke malas nak layan...

She remembers..

I posted a pic of mine in fb today and received comments from my primary school teacher..Cikgu Aishah..I was so thrilled to know she remembers me. When I became her fb friend, I didn't even bother to recall her memory of me..yela, she is still a teacher now..so can you imagine berape banyak student die pernah ade..

But when she dropped comments macam tu, saya sgt happy and teruja..She was my class teacher in 1994. Mase tu darjah 4 kot..

China doll haircut ya'll!hahahahaha..memang tu la gaye hair cut ku dulu..camne rambut Qis sekarang, camtula rambut ku..

Thank you cikgu. Nice to know that you still remember me!!

Aku ade jamban..ko ade?

Propa tak tajuk tu??kihkih..

Saya pernah menerima nasihat dari orang yang pade saya tak layak pun nak nasihatkan saye..

eh,eh,..die berak merate-rate die nak ajar kite berak dalam jamban pulak..
macam tu lah perumpamaannye..

sakit hati mase dengar tu but i don't see the point of standing up against these kind of people.nanti kite same-same busuk macam die..

perangai dah la busuk ade hati nak nasihat orang..

haaaaakkkkkttuuuiiihhhh!!!

Reminiscing the past..

tibe teringat tempat kerja lame pulak.. semalam bile en hubby balik he said 'tadi lalu tempat kerja lame ayg..' Ernst & Young..started my journey there in Feb 2007.Mase masuk keje tu baru abis my ACCA..semangat gile nak keje. I remember I was offered by KPMG as well but ended up choosing EY.

I gained good and valuable experiences there. Not just the tasks but the people I met along the way is interesting as well.All sorts of people with colorful attitude and behavior..macam-macam..yang pelik2 pun ade..

Working in EY..hrmm..big pay but crazy work loads..chasing datelines all the time. Kerja balik kul 3-4 am kot..mase 9 months ngandungkan Qis pun still bawak kereta balik kerja kul 3am..crazy huh?

So when I gave birth to Qis, I decided its time to move on to a different working environment. I need a 9-5 working time. I want and I need that family time at night.I left EY in June 2009. Moved forward, no remorse.

So here I am..working at Bintang Fadzilat (M) Sdn Bhd.Duit depa, ku jaga..kahkahkah..

Yup its a family business. I work with my dad. The pay is not that high but ample.the most important thing is that the working environment is flexible.Anak sakit or nak cuti tak payah..and no, the work is not easy.same je susah cam keje construction company yang lain but my working life is not hectic..Alhamdulillah.

This is definitely what I need. And guess what? Monday blues..x pernah rase monday blues..seriously!

Syukur Ya Allah atas rezeki dan kurniaanMu ini!

I'm a proud mom!

I have been successfully breastfeeding lil' Qairina till this very moment and are determine to continue doing so until she is 2 years old..Mase Qis dulu dapat breastfeed die setahun lebih je..

This couple of months has been a challenging months but I managed to do it. There was one time, nothing came out mase ku memerah sebab stress.Nangis mase tu..sedih and cuak sebab xde susu keluar..

I stopped for a while, cube bertenang, tengok muke anak, doa kat Allah and I start again..alhamdulillah.It worked. Mase tengah stress tu ade terpikir nak stopped breastfeed my daughter sebab cam tak mampu..kesian die..whatever emotions we had when we are breastfeeding our child die pun akan rase kan?

And I am so glad I didn't go on with the decision to stop.coz I'll be regretting it for the rest of my life..kenape pulak Qairina yang jadi mangse sebab mama die tak kuat kan? Syukran Ya Allah.

I'm a proud mom! I will continue selagi boleh! Chaiyock 'Ain!

En Marah, Go Away!

Marah..

Satu perasaan yang kite tak dapat lari darinye..Selagi namenye kite ni manusia, perasaan mara memang datang tanpa diduga..

We can't avoid it, but we can learn how to handle it. Marah pada saya adalah satu emosi yang sangat memenatkan..We can never solve a problem when we are angry.

Saya sangat tak suke perasaan marah ni..if i'm angry, i will turn away from that person n pujuk hati sendiri..saya tak suke nak mara lame-lame.. Rasulullah pun kate, kalau marah, palingkan muke..I will always try to think positively on almost anything..Because to me, negativity consumed energy and good vibes.

Sampai my close friends cakap ' Ain, ko ni positif sangat la..pasal tu hidup ko ni ceria je kot?' Bile saya mara, tak lame..coz i don't see the point untuk melayan mara dan drag it lame-lame..benefit ape kite dapat? hati tak tenang, silaturrahim pun terputus..

so prinsip saya, kalau mara jangan layan.sabar and get over with it cepat-cepat.dah tenang, kalau perlu say sorry untuk meredakan keadaan, just say sorry.sebab tak semestinya kite jadi orang yang bersalah kalau kite minta maaf.

Lately ni saye memang agak susah nak handle mara saye..bile die datang Ya Allah..kadang sampai menggigil..rase nak jerit, tampar orang semue ade..suke en.setan tu bakar-bakar line kalau kite marah kan?Melompat die kegirangan..

I hate this feeling. when it comes, and I failed to control it, I ended up hurting the feeling of my loved ones.When it comes, nothing can ease it.biar la orang cakap ape pun, mase tu yang saya nak hanyalah meluahkan perasaan marah tu..x pikir dah hati n perasaan orang lain.

ye,memang susah nak pujuk hati bile mara. tengah mara nak bersabar memang payah.lately ni saya gagal ikut prinsip saya. I failed to stay positive.Saya sgt mudah mara bila terfikir certain things.When I snapped, it gets ugly..and I hate it. I hate this part of me.

Ya Allah, Kau kurniakanlah aku kesabaran dan jauhilah aku dari sifat marah Ya Allah..

The Nanny..

remember this? The cast of The Nanny show!!

Awwwwww...Mr Sheffield!!! *Fran Fine style*

Oh how I miss this show. Makes me laugh each time, every time without fail!!

The things that came out from her mouth..witty, bold and honest..hahahahah..

Oh please bring back the series on tv.

easier said than done..

don't judge people if we only know half of the story..if we conclude based on that half, we are being bias.

we can always give our opinions and suggestions..'you can..' or 'you should'..or 'why not' but don't expect people to agree and follow because at the end of the day, they are the one who should decide.

they are the one facing it and have to live with the consequences of their actions. so you can't say 'if you don't want to listen to me, why bother approaching me for an opinion..' wow.

orang tu je tau ape die rase and kenape die buat camtu..untuk kite cakap kite paham ape die rase and nak die ikut cakap kite and cadangan kite..hrmm, i dunno what to say..

kalau kite hadapi ape yang orang tu hadapi, belum tentu kite mampu buat cam ape yang kite cadangkan kat orang tu kan?

just my opinion..u don't have to agree..

toodles.

The hole in the street..

I stumbled upon this story. i like its simplicity..

Scene 1:
I walk down a street, and there's a deep hole in the sidewalk.I fall in. It takes forever to get out.It's not my fault.

Scene 2: 
I walk down the same street. I fall in the hole again. It still takes a long time to get out. It's my fault.

Scene 3:
I walk down the same street. I fall in the whole again. It's becoming a habit. It is definitely my fault. I get out immediately.

Scene 4:
I walk down the same street and see the deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.

Scene 5:
I walk down a different street.


Simple yet direct isn't it? it carries the fundamental guidelines of change.How many times do we have to fall into the same hole before we learn?

If there is a hole on the street we are walking now which  we keep falling in, shouldn't we have avoid it or take another street?

Decide now before we are severely hurt.make a change.

Morning Call..

pagi-pagi big bos dah call panggil meeting..

oh tidak..aku dah tau pasal ape..abis la..kene bambu la satgi ni..

terima je la ain..ko director ke ape ke kalau dah big boss mara telan je la..kihkih..

err..abaaahhh, eh salah...bosss..please be nice  *buat mate besar ala-ala pussy cat*

kalau kat umah berkesan la care ni..kat ofis, chet..

pencuri di kenduri..

okay hari ni rajin nak buat 2 post..since en hubby tak gune lappy die, ku lenjan la kejap..

suspen tak tajuk kat atas tu?haaaa...alkisahnye, mase kenduri adik2ku hari tu ade jugak orang amik kesempatan..the lost? amounting to 2000 kot!

when my mom told me about the incident something came into my mind..i remember arriving late for the wedding..pengantin dah sampai baru aku sampai..

i remember rushing up the stairs to change Qis's clothes. I remember bumping into an unfamiliar guy walking down the stairs..our eyes connected, he was not smiling at all ( yela masuk umah org, jumpe tuan rumah senyum la sikit kan?) and his face..kinda cuak gitu..

and there was no one else kat atas mase tu..at that time terdetik hati ni..'eh,die ni buat ape kat atas..tandas kan ade kat bawah..oh, tandas penuh kot..' and that was it..

so bile mamaku cerita bout how my dad, sis and bro's hilang duit, terus aku teringat mamat tu..chet..x terfikir langsung mase tu..sempat jugak die masuk bilik2 and amik duit..

and the timing was just right..mase pengantin sampai and everybody ngah sibuk2 nak tengok pengantin..hish..sabar je la..

sompek ekau panjang tangan maso orang ngah busy..eden soligi baru ekau tau!jeki ko la pencuri oii! at least, for this time..

that white note..

Received this the other day..

I was excited when i received the parcel..but the moment i saw a letter..classy! u made my day sapok..thank you so much..baju ko bagi untuk baby is one thing but surat tu..terharu aku ok..dah lame kot tak dapat surat..kihkih..

I was smiling and grinning reading it.the last part was...boleh tak aku cakap touching..u know what, i felt the same way each time. remembering the times we had back in school, it was priceless..

just to be there in that moment again, no headache, no difficulties, no i-want-to-disappear time.. all about joy and craziness i think i would give up just anything..aku nak sangat pinjam pintu mase kat doraemon..waaaaa....

Thank you so much sapok..for the baju and the letter! okay aku nak nangis dah bace balik surat ko..in time of difficulties, i find this letter to be so...comforting.

love u guys!

Busy days..

Busy days ahead ya'll..10.11.12 & 11.11.12

The reception and solemnization day of my lil' brother and sister..dah besar dah adik2 aku..baru je rasenye bagi penampar kat my brother tu..eh?kihkih..kidding..

Yang nak kahwinnye my sister yang kat tengah tu and my brother yang kat belakang I tu..yang gambar I yang bulat tu ignore lah ye..mase ni ngandungkan Qairina..dah 8 bulan..

Anyways, will be adding 2 new members to the family..To Aqilah and Muhammad, jadilah suami dan isteri yang bertanggungjawab dan terbaik utk pasangan masing2..Patience and tolak ansur dalam menghadapi cabaran dan dugaan..

Ingat, Allah duga hamba2 yang disayangiNya dan Allah takkan duga kite lebih dari yang kite mampu..

Kaklong love both of you! Aku tetap kakak korang yang gile tuh okayyy!!hahahahahaah...

Post-pregnancy weight..

Post-pregnancy kali ni berat saye turun agak banyak..

Mase mengandung Qistina naik 15kg turunnye 12kg je..
Mase mengandung Qaisara naik 13kg turunnye pun 13kg..
Mase mengandung Qairina, naik 7kg je..tapi dah turun15kg..

Hihi..slim la sikit tapi masih banyak lebihannye..kihkih..*wink*

Shove it all Ain!Eh, ape yang tinggal pastu?

powerpuff girls..

me n my kids..my princesses..

Shame on you!

A mother always has to think twice.Once for herself and once for her children..- sophia loren

well said. so saya tak paham bile ade mak yang mementingkan diri sendiri..sanggup hilang anak kerane ikutkan nafsu..u called yourself a mother?shame on you! u are not qualified to be anyone's wife or mother.
shame on you..u know what? dunia ni bulat..u'll get what you do to others..sekian..